normally i wouldn’t post such personal things that I might regret but typing things out can sometimes help especially when I know the ones reading it are mostly people who know and love me & will give me encouraging feed back.
I am getting really nervous about my hormones and emotions after the baby arrives. When I had Eislee, during pregnancy I wasn’t very hormonal & had absolutely no post-pardon blues. If I ever did get cranky it was because of the lack of sleep. This time around, I feel crazy i think opposite thoughts almost every other hour. one moment I’m giddy the next I am all melancholy. a lot of the things I think come from worry, which I am practicing giving that to the Lord and often share those many worries with my mother and sisters, who are very encouraging, having learned form their own experiences and are pointing me to the Lord often.
this week has been hard accepting that as a mother I will make mistakes and never be perfect. which for me can be hard to understand because I want to do the best thing for my babies. i question a lot if I am being to strict or am I being to relaxed. do i keep Eislee to busy for a 2 year old or do I do enough activity. i want her to have a healthy balance. sometimes i say no to things when she asks in public and then feel embarrassed like people are thinking oh thats not a big deal. or sometimes i’ll let her do something and think people are thinking wow does she do that all the time.
ughh I could actully go on and on about it but that’s just a few examples and actually as I am typing it I was right, I do feel better. Because Eislee is ok, I am learning, and the Lord takes care of it all. *sigh*
all the thinking can drive a girl crazy thou… i wonder if it will be hard to keep friends once I have another baby, will I be able to take care of myself. and will Brian feel left out because now not only one little one has my attention but two. then theres the other set will baby be healthy, will he adjust well to nursing. UGH see i’m worrying. I believe I will look back at this post sometime from now and laugh. and/or Praise the Lord because its all going to be alright.
with hope the next post will be much more positive, bye for now. CrazyPregnantMomma, xo, Lea
Warning: I will be posting more cuteness than I already do :) #newapps #afterglow
baby pillow. #pinterest
We are feeling all better. Sick for about 3 weeks, and then spent a week playing catch-up. Eislee’s birthday celebration was perfect. Sweet time with loved friends. She seems so much older now that she’s officially 2. She is talking so much more & becoming such a fun playful little toddler. This last week she even moved on to the 2&3’s in Sunday school. It was a happy-sad moment for me. Each day I try to enjoy her as much as I possibly can as she is, because time truly goes bye quick. I love watching her sleep snuggled in her bed at night. I love seeing her interaction with her Daddy. Her attention to things, she’s so interested in details, its the cutest thing. I love her so much, huge huge blessing she is.
Yesterday I got Brian’s camera out & I am determined to figure it out so I can use it. I have always taken pictures on it but hate how they turn out because I just snap & have no Idea what i’m doing. Hopefully my pictures here will become better. I know my amount of pictures I take with my phone & camera will double once baby brother arrives.
Eislee had fun she thought the camera was the most fun thing. She def is not camera shy & I love that.
And for anyone thats wondering I am feeling good. 23 weeks pregnant & doing well. Started reading some new pregnancy books and tons of blogs and articles, getting really excited to have a newborn again as well as try somethings differently this time than last :).
I dont know how but life seems to get busier and busier as the years go bye. I am thankful to say I am busy with things I enjoy and am very blessed.
I have a spur of the moment free spot to sit here and tell you about life right now.
I am now 20 weeks preggers. Half way there… It’s going by too fast! I am falling in love with our little man in side already. If you didn’t know, Yes! It’s a boy. We named him Dax Everett Doster.
I am currently being a crafty house wife and working on a a set-up for an all things vintage for little ones, I am very excited about it & will be participating in my first sale for it the 29th!!
I have also started on Eislee’s 2nd birthday bash, she and her friends are going to be the cutest little indians in the park…….. eeekk.. that was qucik I have to have to have to go already. Until next time. xo